Emery County Fair Rock Wall. Created by Humpty Dumpty Mural Magic

Brenda and I have been on the staff for the Emery County Fair Planning Board for two years now.

This year the theme for our fair is “Home Grown Energy”.

Our community is mostly supported by the coal industry.

The coal mines supply coal to two Power Plants where the electricity that we all enjoy is produced.

The coal industry creates a ripple effect of jobs in our community.

We need machine shops to repair and service the mine equipment.

We have trucking companies that exist because of the need to haul the coal.

And on and on it goes.

Without these industries our county could very possibly cease to exist.

We also have lots of natural gas, helium, iron, and uranium deposits here that sustain us as well.

We are proud of our county, and love our small town life.


As anyone who reads the news knows, the government is threatening to shut down the coal mines and power plants.

So this year we decided to highlight the benefits of these industries.

We feel that our side of the story needs to be heard too.

Our way of life deserves to be defended.

This year, we as a committee, are hoping to do just that!


So As a staff we decided to decorate the Exhibition Hall in a way that would honor each area of HOME GROWN ENERGY we supply in EMERY COUNTY, UTAH.

Brenda and I built a 13’x10’rock wall to replicate the portal to a coal mine.

Here are the pictures of our latest mural creation.


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Here is the finished wall.

rock wall 2









Our local Sheriff Dept brought over inmates to assist us with the installation. The rock wall weighted approx 900lbs, luckily we built it in sections so that a human could install it. 😉


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Its hard to see it in the pictures, but I also painted train tracks on the floor so that the coal dumpster could ride the rails right into the portal.



I’m a big fan of the word REMARKABLE…

“It’s also helpful to realize that this very body

that we have,

that’s sitting right here right now,

with its aches and it pleasures,

is exactly what we need to be fully human,

fully awake, fully alive.”

 Pema Chodron











I’m a big fan of the word Remarkable.

It means worthy of notice and attention… worthy of being extraordinary and uncommon.

Is that how you’d define yourself right now?

Before I went through my own dramatic transformation, there wasn’t a chance I’d ever use any of those words to describe myself.

When I was at my emptiest, I pretty much stopped taking care of myself.

I barely had the energy to feed myself, let alone eat healthy.

A deep sadness set in, and with it came petty fights with those I most cared about.

Nobody knew it, because – like women everywhere – I’d gotten really good at still wearing a smile even while I was breaking down inside.

fake smile









It took a long, long time to get there.

But I eventually discovered I was missing the core element on which all lasting change is built: Internal worth.


I came to understand that any self-improvement I made would eventually fall by the wayside,

because at the time,

I was focused only on external improvement.

What I needed to do was recognize my own core value and worth first.

Because external improvements will never last if you don’t first acknowledge your own self-worth.

If you’re making the changes because the outside world says you should…

then any change you make is temporary.












It helps to know you’re not alone.

Because since my own transformation, I’ve spoken with countless women who aren’t aware of their own worth.

Writing this blog has allowed me to meet some amazing women with incredibly sad stories who have no idea how remarkable they really are.

But the thing that has helped me the most was being able to connect to my spirit.

BY doing that, I was finally, at long last, able to release the emotional and energetic traumas that contributed to my sadness in the first place.

The first step in reclaiming my worthiness was figuring out a way to make myself my own priority.

That’s what I recommend you do if you’re interested in long-term, deeply satisfying change:

Make yourself your top priority.

I have made a list of seven ways that I have found that remind, or help me to do this on a consistent basis.


7 Ways to Make Yourself Your Top Priority:

  1. Acknowledge that only you can decide what you want in life – and ignore all the outside messages, whether they stem from the media or from your closest friends

happy by choice








  1. Take 10 minutes out of every day to do something for yourself. Take a hot bath or a short walk, or dive into that book you’ve been wanting to read for ages.











  1. Surround yourself with beauty. The more goodness you feel around you, the worthier you’ll feel. So schedule an outing with a friend who makes you laugh, or buy a beautiful painting to hang on your wall, or allow yourself to savor a sumptuous dessert.


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  1. The next time someone asks you to do something and you hesitate, listen to the message from your inner self. It’s okay to say “no.”

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  1. Write a sentence of gratitude every day that celebrates something about your physical body. Example: I’m grateful for my big blue eyes. I’m grateful for the crinkling in the skin around my eyes that shows I’ve laughed a lot through the years.

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  1. Say what you feel. Value your own feelings by acknowledging them. If you can express yourself honestly, you’ll be better equipped to make wise decisions instead of being pressured into things you don’t really want to do.











  1. Speak mindfully to yourself. It’s easy to make cutting judgments about yourself, but that’s a far cry from self-awareness. Instead, choose goal-oriented statements when talking to yourself. So instead of tearing yourself down for not getting to the gym, say, “I deserve to exercise my body and look forward to feeling great as a result.”











The second step I took was in acknowledging that something needed to change, and it needed to start with me.

Let’s admit it – you can’t have it all and really learn to love your body and be proud of who you are if you continue doing the same things you’ve been doing.

That meant I had to stop worrying about how I looked and what others thought of me.

I had to get over my constant need for external validation.

Because the truth of the matter is, you’ll never develop true internal worth if you stay focused on external validation.

True transformation is both


and self-defined.


The truth is we never rise above our self-image, at least not for long.

And if we ever do, our mind cannot handle our success and we quickly revert back to the way we were before.

This is how we create cycles like Yo-yo dieting. 


How is your MIND Programmed?

Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art…

It has no survival value;

rather it is one of those things that give value to survival.

C S Lewis











Once you decide to choose yourself and acknowledge your importance, you need to look at the ways you might be holding yourself back.

I’m not suggesting that you’re willingly holding yourself back (though that’s sometimes the case 

But it’s important to understand the subtle ways you doubt your abilities, and more importantly – why you do it.

The simple answer?


We’re inundated with over 3,000 advertising messages every day, through television, websites, social media, billboards, magazines, and our daily mail.












We’re constantly told we can’t have it all… that if you want happy, thriving children, you’d better give up your career.

Or that if you hope for a passionate relationship, professional advancement has to take a backseat.

It’s no wonder that so many women don’t feel worthy –

we’re told we are failing if we don’t fit the picture society has drawn for us.

We’re fed standards every minute of every day that are impossible to live up to!

So if you’ve ever, at any point in your life,

felt invisible,





or unheard…

you’re not alone.

We’ve all felt it.

Deep down, I think we all share similar desires…

What are these real desires?


The desire to be noticed.

The desire to walk into a room and be seen.

desire to be seen








Not because you want to look like anybody else’s standard of beauty, but because you have something genuinely unique to offer the world.

“I’d get sick to my stomach when someone took a picture of me.

I’d try to cover my double chin with my hands, and pull my shirt down to cover my bulging belly..

When Victor died,  we were making a video for his funeral.

I was so sad when I realized that there were no pictures of me to add to the video.

I had either refused to be photographed, or had destroyed every single picture of me.

I now make sure that when I am doing things with my kids, we have a picture to remember that moment with.

I think that at times we are all preoccupied with hesitations over your body image and whether you got your makeup right.

But honestly,most people won’t notice that.

They’ll look for the light in your eyes.

They’ll listen to the animation in your voice.

Other people are a lot more interested in what you have to offer than you might think.

But the hurdle is getting to the point where you understand and accept that.

That’s exactly why it’s so crucial you recognize where these low expectations are coming from.

Anytime you’ve ever felt thwarted self-confidence, or you’ve doubted yourself physically or mentally, it’s the result of programming.

So does that mean it’s bad to want to improve your body and look beautiful?



It’s just bad to want to look like someone else’s version of beautiful.

You’ve got to find and define your own.

That starts with breaking free from the programming that has steered you down the wrong path for years.

Breaking free may not happen overnight,

But it will happen quicker than you think when you follow a proven formula that guides you through it.

So if you’re really ready to shed that negative programming,

you need an outlet –

a way to share with those who support and appreciate you, and who are on a similar path.

So my next piece of advice is to supplement your efforts with a community of women who relate to your desire to feel accomplished and appreciated.








Does that mean you have to abandon your current network of friends and contacts?

Possibly, but not necessarily.

Look. As women, we often thrive on sameness and the ability to relate to one another.

If I tell you about something embarrassing that happened to me, and you share that the same thing happened to you, and we can commiserate about the shame or awkwardness that ensued…

that creates a connection between us.

If we’re neighbors or colleagues or acquaintances and we connect like that again and again and again, we’re likely to become friends.

And friends are an incredible resource.

So many of us women become close by sharing our war stories, our secret shames, and our frustrations with our home lives.

If you transform your life into what you truly want,

it almost feels like you’re betraying that friendship.

“I’ve lied to people about why I didn’t attend an event or party or even a meet-up because I was embarrassed with how I looked.

I’ve missed out on a great deal over the years because of my insecurities about my weight.



So two things need to happen.

First, you need to decide whether certain friends should remain part of your life, or whether they’ll pull you down.

True friends will applaud you as you work to improve yourself.

Some will even be open to joining you and changing their own “programmed” habits.

That brings us to the second thing you need to do, which is build up your own, personal, “fortress of support.”

The best way I’ve found to do this is to have a go-to community of women who support and nourish your quest for fulfillment.

They’ll drown out the voices of the naysayers who must remain in your life.

They’ll become your daily resource for inspiration, healing, connection, and guidance.

Most importantly, a supportive community of women who relate to your own quest for self-advancement will be right there for you as you reclaim your self-confidence, shape new ambitions, and learn to love the body you were born with.

They’ll be the ones who applaud you when things go right in your life, instead of grudgingly conceding you’ve done well.

They’ll also be the people who encourage you to uncover your deeper needs and acknowledge your most ambitious desires.

In short, a genuinely supportive community will help you achieve true transformation and empowerment, which starts with the ability to reclaim your worthiness and shed external programming. 



Crazy! A Man Asks a Homeless Man to Borrow his Bucket, What Happens Next Will Burst you Into Tears

I had to share this post. It made my day!

Reality Of Christ

I usually don’t share stories like this one, but this time I just couldn’t help myself! This story not only brought me to tears but encouraged me to take note of others around me.

The video below is of a German student who took note of a homeless man attempting to get money from those passing by.  He noticed that the man’s techniques were not very successful so he asks the homeless man to borrow his bucket. What happens next will literally drive you to tears…

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We ALL have to Start Somewhere.

“Never forget that once upon a time, in an unguarded moment, you recognized yourself as a friend.”

Elizabeth Gilbert

be your own friend









What is the first step in designing a better life for yourself?

You need to decide to love and accept yourself COMPLETELY,

I have discovered that too many women ignore their own needs to the point where they define themselves based solely on the world around them.

By doing this, you’re overlooking the central thing that makes you important: being YOU. 

In my Post, “The Art of Surrender: Part two of Surrendering to your unique Beauty.” I talked about how in order for us to love God and our neighbors, we first need to learn how to love ourselves.

I am going to continue to expand on that a little bit more today.

If you are ready to get to the place where you are living a vibrant life full of satisfaction you need to decide that you are worthy of such a life.

I totally get that it is not an easy thing to do – especially given the pressures we are under these days.

But never-the-less, we all need more love, and in order to give and receive that love, we first need to make sure that the “Well” is full.

fill your well





The thing is, getting there requires a different road than what you might think.

Because sadly, just about all of us have been “programmed” to think we should look like that retouched image of a size-zero model.

After all, she’s the one in all the television programs and commercials; she’s that happy face on the billboard by the freeway who tells us we need to look like her to be happy.

perfect woman









But contentment isn’t found in a jar of beauty cream or the latest diet craze…it comes from within.

We live in a day and age where more doors are open to us than ever before.

Women constantly exceed the status quo, from landing high-power executive positions to excelling at professional sports to being part of teams of scientists who go all the way to the moon.

Women are nurturers, caretakers, multi-taskers, and over-achievers.

multitasking mom








They can make a costume for their child’s school play,

bake cookies for a charity rummage sale,

paint a bedroom,

plan the family’s vacation,

create a business plan for a retail website,

plan a week’s worth of meals…

and that’s just in the first few hours of a day! 

The list goes on and on.

We’re expected to be shapely and graceful,

to birth our babies and quickly lose the weight,

to grow wise over time but never show a sign of wrinkling,

to be loving and instructive to others without coming across as bossy or bitchy.

I’m not going to sugarcoat it:

There’s hardly any balance between the expectations lavished on women and the reality of what’s possible. 







That is why learning to love and accept yourself is crucial if you want to thrive in this fast paced world of ours.

Trying to improve any area of your life is virtually impossible unless you do one very important and too-often ignored thing.

And the first step to getting there is… You have to choose yourself.

We all have our own set of unique circumstances and experiences.

What is true for one, may not be true for another.

In order to love ourselves, we need to also understand where we came from, and why we were created in the first place.

I believe that God created women with a specific purpose in mind.

You see… as women, we are remarkable in our ability to meet the needs of others.

capable woman








We are capable, competent, smart, and motivated.

But too often, we let our self-doubt hold us back from the great strides we were born to make.

We judge ourselves, second-guess our choices, and doubt our intuition.

When we feel capable of rising up to accomplish something, we let the impostor-syndrome cloud our view…

Ever heard of it – the impostor syndrome?






That’s what happens when things start to go well for you, but instead of feeling proud or satisfied, you worry you’re a fraud.

Self-doubt convinces you that good things only happen because you luck out, or that the forces of the universe align for a brief instant to give you what you want.

So you chalk it up to chance, because no way could something truly fantastic happen because you made it happen!

Am I right?

I hope you’ll agree with me – that line of thinking is wrong, wrong, wrong!

But just about all of us are guilty of it at one point or another.

Think about it.

If every woman in every town rose up to her full potential and set her sights on improving all the things in the world that need attention…

can you imagine the positive change that would take place?

I like to think that’ll happen.


But to get to that point, the answer isn’t to reach out to the world, or to your community, or even your family.

Not first, anyway.  If you want to enact true, positive change – the kind that means a happier life for you and your loved ones, then you have to choose yourself.

believe in youself







positive changeYesterday, I said I was going to work on finding the courage to face my Bully,  I know that I will never succeed at that task until I decide that I am worthy of fair treatment.

No matter what our current challenge is, loving ourselves will give us the courage to face that challenge head on.

I challenge you to take this first step in enacting positive, lifelong change and creating the life you desire:

Choose yourself.

Acknowledge that you are visible, you deserve to be heard, and that going forward, you will not waver in seeking your own truth.

You’ll shuck off everything society tells you to be, you’ll ignore the way you’re “supposed” to look, and you’ll pursue your own truth.

Remember that ALL of you is BEAUTIFUL!


Just taking IT!

“You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection”

Gautama Buddah










I remember when I was younger, my self-esteem was rock solid.

I was ten feet tall and bullet proof.

But, I when I married my first husband just two short weeks after high school graduation and the abuse started,I began to doubt myself.

I became a very insecure person who had self esteem issues that became rampant.

insecure woman







They unconsciously controlled just about every social interaction I was in.

And I didn’t even know it.

For example, when I received a compliment, I always felt compelled to respond by giving a reason for the compliment.

Other: “Wow, the blue in your eyes really stand out today!”

Me: “Yeah that’s because of the shirt I’m wearing.”


Other: “I really like your hair today.”

Me: “I tried styling it differently using some gel and a trick I learned from the person who cut my hair.”


Other: “I really like the way you treated that homeless person with compassion.”

Me: “Everybody has tough times, and I’m glad to be able to help a little bit.”

Now all of those examples seem benign normal social interactions.

However, they’re MISSING something.

See, in each of them there is an unconscious lack of self-confidence.

It might be huge.

It might be small.

That depends on the person.

Do you ever find yourself behaving this same way?

In each of those interactions there is an explanation as to -why- we are the way we are.

In those examples, I was trying to *justify* a good quality about myself…

Because deep down I believed that being me simply wasn’t “enough.”

It wasn’t enough for me to just take it and say

                                                    “Thank you.”







Because I felt inadequate, I had to create a reason why the compliment could be “allowed.

It wasn’t allowed as it was, on its own, simply because another person was appreciating me.

Part of me felt unworthy enough to receive the appreciation.

I felt unconsciously “not good enough” to be complimented authentically.

I couldn’t take it.

And so rather than just saying “Thank you,” I had to rationalize (give “rational lies”) to cover over my perceived inadequacy.

I share this with you because so many of us don’t fully receive compliments from others.

We gloss them over.

We don’t take them in.

We don’t allow other peoples’ appreciation to personally *affect* us.

We have difficulty just being seen and acknowledged for the amazing Divine beings that we are.

divine beings








It took me years to learn to say “Thank you” when receiving a compliment.

Now, however, I always do my best to receive the compliment and let it land with me.

No rationalization.

No explanation.

No reason why.

Just simply receiving the gift that another person has given me.

I still find myself slipping back into old habits and explaining “WHY”…

but I am trying hard to catch myself when I do it, and just simply say, “Thanks”

In your own life, I challenge you…

For the next few days –whenever you receive a compliment– limit your reply to saying “Thank you” with a smile while making eye contact with that person.

Nothing more.

I challenge you to “just take it” and see what you discover. 🙂


Now my next personal challenge will be learning to stand up for myself when I am being taken advantage of, and mistreated.

I would love to hear your suggestions, or tips that you have used to enable you to stand up to the “Bullies” in your life.

This is a really big issue in my life right now that I would love some input on.


Humpty Dumpty Custom jobs.

This was a special request for a friend. His dad loves to farm on his John Deere tractor, and his wife calls him the “OLD GOAT”. So that is the story behind the silly painting.




lady of the house






This was a painting request for “Nanna Ladybug”


zentangle red prints







Zentangle hearts canvas.


metal three piece heart







Barnwood Heart Puzzle Door Hanger covered with metal sheeting.

Isaiah 26:1-19

A Song of Praise to the Lord

isaiah 26


1 In that day, everyone in the land of Judah will sing this song:
Our city is strong!
We are surrounded by the walls of God’s salvation.
2 Open the gates to all who are righteous;
allow the faithful to enter.
3 You will keep in perfect peace
all who trust in you,
all whose thoughts are fixed on you!
4 Trust in the LORD always,
for the LORD GOD is the eternal Rock.
5 He humbles the proud
and brings down the arrogant city.
He brings it down to the dust.
6 The poor and oppressed trample it underfoot,
and the needy walk all over it.
7 But for those who are righteous,
the way is not steep and rough.
You are a God who does what is right,
and you smooth out the path ahead of them.
8 LORD, we show our trust in you by obeying your laws;
our heart’s desire is to glorify your name.
9 In the night I search for you;
in the morning* I earnestly seek you.
For only when you come to judge the earth
will people learn what is right.
10 Your kindness to the wicked
does not make them do good.
Although others do right, the wicked keep doing wrong
and take no notice of the LORD’s majesty.
11 O LORD, they pay no attention to your upraised fist.
Show them your eagerness to defend your people.
Then they will be ashamed.
Let your fire consume your enemies.
12 LORD, you will grant us peace;
all we have accomplished is really from you.
13 O LORD our God, others have ruled us,
but you alone are the one we worship.
14 Those we served before are dead and gone.
Their departed spirits will never return!
You attacked them and destroyed them,
and they are long forgotten.
15 O LORD, you have made our nation great;
yes, you have made us great.
You have extended our borders,
and we give you the glory!
16 LORD, in distress we searched for you.
We prayed beneath the burden of your discipline.
17 Just as a pregnant woman
writhes and cries out in pain as she gives birth,
so were we in your presence, LORD.
18We, too, writhe in agony,
but nothing comes of our suffering.
We have not given salvation to the earth,
nor brought life into the world.
19 But those who die in the LORD will live;
their bodies will rise again!
Those who sleep in the earth
will rise up and sing for joy!
For your life-giving light will fall like dew
on your people in the place of the dead!

One Big Freaking Miracle

We have all heard the saying,

“Being grateful is just as important as breathing.”

Every person alive right now is breathing.

But the act of breathing alone does not make for a happy, fulfilled person.

Happiness is a conscious choice we make!

gratitude into enough









It’s unfortunate how many people allow for their unconscious, fear-ridden thoughts to control their attitudes and their reality.

Think about it, really ALL of us have the power to focus our mind and direct our energy in a positive way that serves our life and those around us.

Gratitude is a major step in unwinding our negative mental habits.

fear vs gratitude







What does the Bible say about gratitude?

(1 Thessalonians 5:16-18)  says, “Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.”

Did you catch that?

Give thanks in all circumstances.

Thankfulness should be a way of life for us, naturally flowing from our hearts and mouths.











Digging into the Scriptures a little more deeply, we understand why we should be thankful and also how to have gratitude in different circumstances.

Paul was heavily persecuted, yet he wrote,

(2 Corinthians 2:14)  “Thanks be to God, who always leads us in triumphal procession in Christ and through us spreads everywhere the fragrance of the knowledge of him”

The writer of Hebrews says,

(Hebrews 12:28) “Therefore, since we are receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, let us be thankful, and so worship God acceptably with reverence and awe”

Peter gives a reason to be thankful for “grief and all kinds of trials,”

(1 Peter 1:6-7) saying that, through the hardships, our faith “may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed”

The people of God are thankful people, for they realize how much they have been given.







One of the characteristics of the last days is a lack of thanksgiving, according to (2 Timothy 3:2) Wicked people will be “ungrateful.”

When we are thankful, our focus moves off selfish desires and off the pain of current circumstances.

Expressing thankfulness helps us remember that God is in control.

Thankfulness, then, is not only appropriate; it is actually healthy and beneficial to us.

It reminds us of the bigger picture, that we belong to God, and that we have been blessed.

By living our lives not realizing how precious, miraculous, and unique this life experience is we guarantee that we will never arrive at the destination of the moment with a grateful heart.

And it is in the “moments” that we discover what it means to be fully loved.

self love








Being fully loved does not come from an outside source like a man or a woman.

It is an all-encompassing presence that is here and now all the time.

It is a state of receptivity that we can open up to with practice.

But when we live in fear for our future or sorrow for our past, we miss it.

We walk past the miracle of the moment with a blind eye.

Through gratitude, we access presence.

We are able to receive the blessings of being alive.

As we open our hearts and our minds and choose to start each day with gratitude, we are able to witness the true magic of life.








The magic I speak of is something that can’t be described because it is unique to each person.

However, when we are ungrateful, feeling like a victim, complaining about what is or blaming something outside of ourselves, we cloud our perspective and miss the whole miraculous Universe (and the Universe is pretty big).

By practicing and learning to say thank you to every experience we have, we move ourselves from victim-hood and into a place where we can thrive. 

This simple act actually allows us to move forward with our life in leaps and bounds.

However most of the time we are so caught up in the game of not getting hurt,

‘just getting through the day

Or whatever other petty story our mind has made up that we forget to say to ourselves…

Holy Cow, I am flying through outer space right now.

Nature is amazing and beautiful.

I have a  body that is made up of trillions of cells.

I can be the person I want to be. 

Yum, food tastes amazing.

 I made it to Planet Earth, what a crazy adventure!






But we don’t do that.

We think to ourselves, 

How will I pay my rent?

Gosh, I hope I don’t look stupid.

I wonder if anybody will notice me today.

Why do bad things always happen to me?

I’m not good enough to have what I want.

I don’t know what to do so I’ll just do nothing.

Life is boring.

This sucks. 

Blah blah blah!

What is up with that?

Isn’t it obvious that this moment,

in this experience,

we are having  in the infinitely expanding Universe is precious, unique and will never happen again? 

By digging deep into ourselves, and being determined to see beyond the popular HYPE that ‘society’ wants us to believe is important…

We are free to focus our energy upon the blessings of simply being here now.

We can live much happier,


more fulfilling lives

And we can bless the people we meet with our attitude of gratitude vibes.

It’s not rocket science. It’s just being grateful!

Richness is just a matter of perspective and if you feel poor or broke, it’s because you are not taking enough time to bare witness to the miracle of RIGHT HERE – RIGHT NOW.

Stop your crazy mental chatter for a moment and concentrate your thoughts on finding one thing,

two things,

ten things,

a million things you can be grateful for.

This will lift the veil of fear that clouds an ungrateful heart and allow you to see life for what it truly is.

A big amazing miracle.